Sunday, May 16, 2004
It's time for a new B log.
there's a subject I skip everytime I go to write a B log. I know people will read it, so I leave it out. Now, I really could care less at this point.
What do you do, when you have fallen in love with your best friend. You chill with her every night, do countless things for her, jump right up when she asks you to take her places, but you don't get the same type of love. My strategy was to wait around, maybe she will realize, so for futher advise to you men, that does not work. It is just hard because she's my best friend, and of course you could read this situation in a teen book, I fall for her. So, last week I was told there were other feelings involved..... Lie ........ And that there could be something..... also lie. So that leaves me in love, doing everything, for someone who doesn't ever want anything. Sound fun? From now on, it is strictly best friends, no getting jealous, no skipping out on everything I have to do. It sucks, cause it was a lot of fun. It was like having a girlfriend, but it got old, the whole me being everything, wanting more but cant have it type of thing.
Im out, just thought I would type down some feelings, so all of you could remember how gay high school was. If not you lucky.
Bryan
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there's a subject I skip everytime I go to write a B log. I know people will read it, so I leave it out. Now, I really could care less at this point.
What do you do, when you have fallen in love with your best friend. You chill with her every night, do countless things for her, jump right up when she asks you to take her places, but you don't get the same type of love. My strategy was to wait around, maybe she will realize, so for futher advise to you men, that does not work. It is just hard because she's my best friend, and of course you could read this situation in a teen book, I fall for her. So, last week I was told there were other feelings involved..... Lie ........ And that there could be something..... also lie. So that leaves me in love, doing everything, for someone who doesn't ever want anything. Sound fun? From now on, it is strictly best friends, no getting jealous, no skipping out on everything I have to do. It sucks, cause it was a lot of fun. It was like having a girlfriend, but it got old, the whole me being everything, wanting more but cant have it type of thing.
Im out, just thought I would type down some feelings, so all of you could remember how gay high school was. If not you lucky.
Bryan
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
My family is about to official get bigger.
In about 25 days my brother, 2nd dad, mentor, consoler, teacher, and Best Friend, will be getting married to Mary Moyer. A perfect match. In GA GA language, a "match made in heaven".
He went away for college when I was about 3 years old. I remember the drive to Bradley University, and the dorms, but not the goodbyes. Probably because I either chose to forget them or because I was to young to understand exactly what was going on. I have been told that I was crying and held my arms out when we left. Pretty sad huh?
Through out life, me and Chris have been distant, mostly through my younger age. We have been also very close, and there have been times where you could have put us in a ring, and rang the bell with Official Mills Lane screaming "lets get it on". He's been a big part of my life. He is the one that recommended I play Basketball, although I was never a favorite and never made the team. It has brought me to a new love. Announcing. When I was younger, he influenced my type of music. He made me a Tape with a picture of me in my Halloween costume. The only 2 songs I remember were Beat On The Brat, and When I Come Around. I remember Jim being there, and laughing at me because I was dancing around to the songs on my bed. I have now changed my taste in music but he is still influencing my taste of rap. I would have never started reading a lot if it was not for the greatest book of all time, "10th Grade". Although I rant and rave about how much I wish he would stop lecturing me on school and life and how immature I am, if it was not for him who would do it. No one can push my buttons quite like him, but you know what? He has taught me more then school ever did and ever will.
The Lawrence family is a little different then a lot of the American family's. At times it felt/feels like I am an only child. At other times, I feel like im part of a monster family. I watch a lot of home movies and look at pictures, because I tend not to rememeber what it was like to have a 5 person family living in one house. Dealing with 2 older brothers. I wish I could remember the lectures they got from my mom and dad. Even though I've been through enough of them to have my grandkids lecture free. I remember little things, like my room, furniture, chrises room, and the death of Jesse. Watching home videos makes me miss the old times, but also look forward to times to come.
All through out my life I have been very jealous of the people who spend more time with my brothers then I do. Mostly Susan and Mary. Im not implying that I dislike them, or wish that they were not part of this family. Because I love them and they have made the Lawrence family grow. I have just always wished for old times, or brotherly time, I think that will come future on in life as I mature and become an adult.
I want to congratulate Chris, im very happy for you, and would like to give an extra thanks to him one of the most important guy in my life. Out of all people you understand me the most.
B law
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In about 25 days my brother, 2nd dad, mentor, consoler, teacher, and Best Friend, will be getting married to Mary Moyer. A perfect match. In GA GA language, a "match made in heaven".
He went away for college when I was about 3 years old. I remember the drive to Bradley University, and the dorms, but not the goodbyes. Probably because I either chose to forget them or because I was to young to understand exactly what was going on. I have been told that I was crying and held my arms out when we left. Pretty sad huh?
Through out life, me and Chris have been distant, mostly through my younger age. We have been also very close, and there have been times where you could have put us in a ring, and rang the bell with Official Mills Lane screaming "lets get it on". He's been a big part of my life. He is the one that recommended I play Basketball, although I was never a favorite and never made the team. It has brought me to a new love. Announcing. When I was younger, he influenced my type of music. He made me a Tape with a picture of me in my Halloween costume. The only 2 songs I remember were Beat On The Brat, and When I Come Around. I remember Jim being there, and laughing at me because I was dancing around to the songs on my bed. I have now changed my taste in music but he is still influencing my taste of rap. I would have never started reading a lot if it was not for the greatest book of all time, "10th Grade". Although I rant and rave about how much I wish he would stop lecturing me on school and life and how immature I am, if it was not for him who would do it. No one can push my buttons quite like him, but you know what? He has taught me more then school ever did and ever will.
The Lawrence family is a little different then a lot of the American family's. At times it felt/feels like I am an only child. At other times, I feel like im part of a monster family. I watch a lot of home movies and look at pictures, because I tend not to rememeber what it was like to have a 5 person family living in one house. Dealing with 2 older brothers. I wish I could remember the lectures they got from my mom and dad. Even though I've been through enough of them to have my grandkids lecture free. I remember little things, like my room, furniture, chrises room, and the death of Jesse. Watching home videos makes me miss the old times, but also look forward to times to come.
All through out my life I have been very jealous of the people who spend more time with my brothers then I do. Mostly Susan and Mary. Im not implying that I dislike them, or wish that they were not part of this family. Because I love them and they have made the Lawrence family grow. I have just always wished for old times, or brotherly time, I think that will come future on in life as I mature and become an adult.
I want to congratulate Chris, im very happy for you, and would like to give an extra thanks to him one of the most important guy in my life. Out of all people you understand me the most.
B law
